Being pregnant is great, just ask anyone. It's a joy. You get to make a baby and think about all the great baby and mom stuff you will be doing. You sleep more and no one can give you shit for not wanting to cook dinner. You can't smoke or drink so you are probably the healthiest you have been in a long time.
these are the kinds of things all the books tell you. they prepare you for morning sickness and stabby pains, constipation and bitchiness. What they don't tell you is how alone you will feel and how isolated. how much you will cry.
i don't have any friends with babies or that are pregnant. one acquaintance but not someone that is a friend that i would talk to about personal things. non of my friends are married and few even have significant others. none of them are thinking about having kids any time soon. honestly, i think for most of them if an unexpected pregnancy happened it would probably mean an abortion, to be blunt. and that's fine. but that leaves me out here in pregnancy world all by myself.
first i can't smoke or drink, so i am now no fun. all of my friends start conversations with "i'd love to go out, too bad you can't drink". i have gotten over the fact that i can't drink. drinking is the last thing on my mind. but this means, no one wants to hang out with me. which sucks. yeah, my options are a little limited. yes i get really tired really quickly. it's temporary. bear with me.
this also means that it's hard to have a great time because everyone else is drinking. try hanging out with a group of people and watch them get drunk while you drink juice. tell me how funny they are in relation to how funny they think they are. the answer is going to be "i'm going to bed" because it's boring hanging with a bunch of drunk people when you can't drink.
i don't even know what people talk about or think about any more. their relationships or movies or school. non of which are relative to me. my relationship is different now and revolves around us being parents. we don't fight. we have nothing to fight about. we do everything we can to make eachother happy (mostly him making me happy) we talk about the baby. no one else wants to hear about my unborn child. my friends are not interested in natural birth choices or cloth diapers.
it's just something to be prepared for. i guess. i know i'm not the only one who feels these things and maybe some people don't have this problem.
but yeah, i'm sorta lonely in pregnancy land. just me and the baby, sleeping and playing wii.